+++Am I️ ready for nicks wedding vows?? Probs not but let’s DO IT I’m feeling soft 2night
I’m always Soft for Nick: an autobiography
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Nick gripped your hands tightly in one of his, clutching a folded piece of paper in the other as if it were a life preserver. His knuckles were white from the strength of his grip and you smiled at him encouragingly as he inhaled a shaky breath. He chuckled self-deprecatingly as he shifted his feet, ducking his head with a wry smile before taking another deep breath and meeting your eyes again. He smiled and bit his hip, eyes already watery before he’d opened his mouth. You heard Diego murmur something encouraging, serious for once, but didn’t quite catch the words. They seemed to fortify Nick and he nodded in acknowledgment before glancing down at the paper and beginning.
“I, uh, I know that a lot people—when a lot of people write their vows they think about all of the good stuff,” Nick started, stumbling a little in the beginning and chewing his lip. “They think about all of the good times they’ve shared with their partner and all of the better times to come. Well, I’m a little unconventional—I think you like that about me,” Nick looked up to glance at you as he added the aside and you smiled and nodded, squeezing his hand. He let out an exaggerated breath and a couple of people laughed before he went on.
“I’m actually writing these vows next to you in bed, looking over at you as you sleep. Your back is to me and you went to bed angry with me. It was my fault and it tears at me that I can’t make this right immediately. That you may be wondering if I believed the words I said in fear,” he paused again and took a deep breath and looked up at you again. By this point you realized the night he must have written his vows and you gave him a half smile. “I didn’t. I don’t. I want to spend the rest of my life being challenged and loved by you. I want to commit every night for the rest of my life to making sure the nights we go to bed angry are few and far between. Your love rests on me like a crown and I wear it proudly. I will champion, comfort and cheer you on every day on this side of eternity,” he paused to press at the corner of his eye and you sniffed and reached up to swipe at yours as well.
“I’m madly, madly in love with you. What we have is light, even if it is not always easy. What we have is worth it even when times are tough. I promise to grow with you, let you wear my sweatshirts when you’re cold and hold you on days when you need a reminder that for the rest of your life you will never have to do anything alone,” Nick finished. Your vision blurred out as the tears built up in your eyes again and you blinked rapidly and looked up. Nick tucked the paper back in his pocket before he thumbed under your eyes, a tear tracking down his cheek that you reached up to brush away. You held each other for a beat and smiled watery smiles at each other before the minister asked for the rings and you two turned to him once more.
*based off the episode Spring Awakening from season 15*
“Some day off”, you mumbled to yourself as you stood in line at the grocery. You still had to go to the post office, pick up Nick’s suits at the cleaners and grab prescriptions at the pharmacy. Finally you got checked out and was able to load the groceries you SUV when the phone rang. The number wasn’t one you recognized. You almost sent it to voicemail but answered, “Hello?”
“Y/N. It’s me. It’s Nick.” Hearing from your husband made your day better.
“Hey babe. I’m so hap-”, but you were cut off.
“I really need you. I was arrested”, Nick spoke quickly.
“You what? Why? I mean, where..”, you couldn’t form a sentence. “It’s a long story. I’m at the 11th precinct. Just get here as soon as you can”, Nick explained, ‘I’m sorry and I love you.”
“Oh Nick I love you too.” The line went dead. Apparently his call time was up.
Your mind was racing. You googled the address for the precinct and tore out of the parking lot. Already 1pm. No way you’d be able to get the kids at this point. You called Nick’s mom to pick the kids up. With that detail off your mind you wondered why Nick was arrested. The last couple of weeks had been rough. A recent case had Nick on edge. His anger worsened. He was already protective but he had gone into overdrive. “What in the world was he doing all the way across town? And why the hell was he arrested?”, you said out loud to yourself.
Finding a free parking space was a challenge but you finally managed. Grabbing your purse, you rushed up the steps of the precinct. It was a med house. A uniformed officer approached you. “Can I help you, Ma’am?”
“Yes, I, uh, I’m looking for my husband, Nick. Nick Amaro”, you swallowed hard.
“Oh Detective Amaro?” You nodded, tears stinging your eyes. “Mrs. Amaro, I’m Officer Conley. Have a seat. I’ll be back”, he gave you a small smile. You wrapped your arms around yourself, suddenly feeling so very cold. Taking a deep breath, you tried to gather your self before seeing Nick.
The officer came back and lead you down a long hallway. He opened the door and you saw Nick, handcuffed. He looked up, your hand went to your mouth. His face had dried blood and the knuckles on his right hand were busted and bloody. “Jesus, Nick.” You rushed to him and went to grab his hands.
“No touching the suspect”, another officer said. You jumped and jerked your hands back.
“Give ‘em a break, rookie. He’s one of us”, Officer Conley said. He uncuffed Nick’s hands and motioned for the rookie to follow him out.. He reached for you. Gently taking his hands in yours, as not to hurt him further, the once threatening tears spilled down your cheeks.
“Nick. What the hell happened?”, you whispered.
He hung his head. When he looked back up, he too had tears in his eyes. He ran his fingers over your knuckles, bringing one hand up to kiss it. He took a shaky breath, “I beat the crap out of Simon Wilkes. I found him taking pictures at a playground. I lost it.”
You knitted your brow, “Simon Wilkes? The guy that was just acquitted?”
He nodded his head, “I’m sorry.”
“Nick”, your voice barely a whisper, “my God. What are they charging you with? What do I do? What do I tell the kids, your Mom…?”
“I don’t know. I’ll be arraigned tomorrow. The union will get me a lawyer. We won’t know what bail is until tomorrow. Let my mom know.”
Your head bobbed. “Hey. It’s going to be ok.” He stood and gathered you in his arms, “Mi amor. Shhh..We’ll get through this”, he kissed your hair.
“Detective Amaro, times up”, the rookie said.
Nick took your face in hands, “Look at me. I love you. Give the kids hugs for me.”
He wiped the tears from your cheeks with his thumbs and kissed your lips softly. “I love you, Nick.”
Back in your vehicle, you broke down. This was NOT happening. How would you explain this to his mom? What were you going to tell the kids? Where would you get the money for bail? Your mind was still spinning when you pulled up outside your house. You let out a long breath, checking yourself in the mirror. Your eyes were a little red and glassy. Walking in, the kids met you at the door, Nick’s mom followed them out. “Hey kiddos!”, you gave them a hug . Looking over their heads, your mother in law saw your face and her brow furrowed. You kissed their heads, then released them. “Hey guys go play in your rooms,okay? I need to talk to your abuela.”
“Do I need to sit down for this conversation? Is Nick ok?, Cesaria’s voice full of concern.
“He’s not hurt, well not really”, you centered yourself and continued, “he was arrested for assault. It was a suspect from a recent case.”
“Oh rubia, oh my.”, she said, grabbing your hands and squeezing.
“He’s in jail, being arraigned tomorrow, bail will be set then, union is getting him a lawyer”, you let out a breath you didn’t know you were holding.
“Listen. Nick will get through this, he’s strong. WE will get through this.” All you could do was nod.
The next morning you and Cesaria sat in front as they led him in. He gave you and his mom a small smile. The defense was hard on Nick. In the end, bond was set. Nick’s lawyer instructed you to get the money down to the precinct ASAP. “We don’t have that kind of money”, you said in a panic. There was no way you could get that money. You already had a second mortgage on the house. Nick hugged his mom and kissed you before he was taken out.
At home that evening, Owen, 10, was the first to ask “when’s dad coming home? Is he going to be gone like when I was really little?”
“Um. I’m not sure buddy.” you told him.
Nora, 4, was pushing her food around on her plate. “I miss Daddy”, her little lip pouting.
You looked up at Cesaria. “Hey. How about we all go for ice cream?”, she said.
“Great idea. Go get your shoes on.” The doorbell rang and you got up to answer. “John. What are you doing here?”
“Mind if I come in?” You opened the door wider and he came in. You motioned for him to take a seat. “I heard about Nick’s arraignment. I’m putting up his bail”, he stated.
“John. That is so kind, but we can’t ask that of you. It would take forever for us to pay you ba-” John held his hand up.
“Y/N, it’s what I want to do. Nick needs his family and you need him.” He rose to leave.
“Thank you, John. You’ll never know how much we appreciate you doing this”, you gave him a hug, catching him off guard.
The next morning you waited while they worked on Nick’s release papers. John had been there very early to post Nick’s bail. The moment you saw him walking out, you ran to his arms.
“Mi amor”, he said breathless. He picked you up, burying his face in your neck, “you feel so good.” He released you. “Had a visitor this morning. Munch. He posted my bail.”
“Yeah, I know. He stopped by yesterday evening.”
“Y/N, I-I’m so… I’m going to figure this out.”
“Shhh.. let’s not talk about that right now. Lets’ just got home and enjoy each other.”
So.. here is the porn star AU. It didn’t come out exactly how I wanted but oh well. There might be little pieces here and there of him back in law school. Thank you guys so much for 300 followers ❤️
Warning: NSFW
It wasn’t a conversation Peter wanted to be having with you. Even if it was so many years ago, he didn’t expect you to ask him about how he exactly paid for college. Peter was hesitant at first and you knew that he had gotten to college due to a baseball scholarship. You didn’t realize that after he had gotten his undergrad degree and gotten into law school, he was having a hard time paying his way through. You didn’t know that he had done porn to help him with the money.
So, you asked him exactly how he paid through law school.
Peter’s face was all red when you asked him how he got the money. Papa Stone wasn’t paying for it and his mother wasn’t in the picture much after the divorce. You stood there and watched Peter’s reddened face as he stuttered out his words as he explained. He couldn’t find the words he wanted to say.
“Peter, come on. How did you get the money?” You asked as you grabbed his hands and looked up at him. A sigh escaped his lips as he pulled his one hand away to rub the back of his neck.
“I-I- you’re not going to judge me, right?” Peter asked. He couldn’t believe he was telling you this. It was something in his past he wasn’t proud of. You laughed softly and moved to sit on the couch.
“Peter, we’ve been married for three years, together for almost seven. I’m not going to judge you.” You said softly as you watched him. He sighed as he came over to you and sat beside you.
“How I paid for law school. I-I, uh, I did some videos… ex-explicit videos…” Peter spoke. You raised a brow slowly as you tried your best to understand what he said.
“Porn! Alright?! I did porn!” Peter shouted. You couldn’t help but let a small laugh escape your lips. Surely your neighbors must have heard what Peter had said and was questioning it.
“A-are you serious? ADA Peter Stone did porn in college? How many videos did you make?!” You were curious at his point. Why did you not know this about your husband? How did you not know this?!
“Uh.. I don’t know. I’m sure you can find my videos still…” Peter shouldn’t have said it. It make you curious and wanted to know exactly what Peter did all those years ago.
“Where were they published? Peter I /have/ to see these!” You said as you got up to grab your laptop. You don’t think you ever saw your husbands face this red in your life. Peter shook his head.
“I’m sure they’re not on the internet anymore. Just forget I said anything about it.”
“You nervous, Petey? Scared? Thinking I’ll laugh at you for how you paid your way through law school? I’m just surprised you didn’t get caught.” You nudged his side as you loaded Google up on your internet browser. Peter rolled his eyes and groaned out.
“You’re seriously looking it up!? C-Come on, you already know what it’s like.” Peter said as he tried to shut your laptop closed. You smirked as you pulled it away from him and gently smacked his hand.
“How often do you get to watch your boyfriend fuck someone else? Especially before we met! Come on, just a little tidbit. Two minutes. Please?” You gave him that look, the one where you continued to bat your eyes until he cave.
“F-fine. Give me your laptop so I can find a few videos…” Peter mumbled as you handed your laptop over to him. Peter typed a few things before his face became extremely red as he clicked on a video.
“I-I can’t believe that I’m showing you these…” Peter said as he make the video full screen and handed you back your laptop. You giggled softly before you hit the play button and began to watch the video.
“Why did you never tell me this is how you paid through college?” You asked him as you glanced towards him while watching the video. Peter shrugged as you turned all your attention to the computer screen once again.
You bit your lip softly and listened as the woman moan out Peter’s name as he pounded into her. You shifted some and paused the video and scrolled down to see the other videos that was linked with this one.
‘Blown by guy for the first time’
“P-Peter, What is this?” You asked as you watched the preview of the video. It was Peter being sucked off by another guy. If your panties weren’t soaked already, they were now.
“N-no! You said one video!” Peter tried to close your laptop but you stopped him and clicked the video.
“I want to watch this one, Peter.” You said as you began watching it. The way that Peter looked enjoying the blowjob, you were a goner. Hearing his moans, watching him thrust into the other guys mouth, you couldn’t take it anymore. You closed your laptop and moved to straddle him.
“Why did you never tell me a guy sucked you off? Was he good?” You asked as you were grinding your soaking wet core against his clothed member. A groan escaped Peter’s lips as he placed his hands on your hips.
“I don’t know, baby. Did you enjoy watching it?” Peter said as he continued to grind you down against him. You nodded and leaned over to kiss his neck.
“Was he good? Were they all good?” You asked as your hands moved to his pants and you slowly undid his belt and undid the zipper.
“Baby, they’re nowhere as good as you.” Peter said as he watched you move to situate yourself between his legs. Peter lifted his hips enough for you to pull his jeans and boxer briefs down. Your eyes connected to his member before you leaned over and licked slowly up his shaft.
You smirked to yourself as you wrapped your lips around the tip and began to slowly bob your head. You were teasing him, only taking the tip in. Peter was groaning softly as he tangled his fingers in your hair and quickly thrusted up into your mouth. You felt him hit the back of your throat as Peter threw his head back. You slowly pulled off him with a pop and gave him a look.
“You need to learn to be patient, Peter! Or else I’ll make you watch as I pleasure myself!” You shot him a glare and he smirked with a raised brow.
“You wouldn’t dare, sweetheart.” Those words made you stand up and head to the bedroom. You slowly stripped out of your clothing once you were there and lay on the bed. Peter knew you wouldn’t pleasure yourself when he was here for you. After a moment, Peter heard some light moaning coming from the bedroom so he went to check it out.
There you were, laying in the bed with your one hand between your legs. Peter just watched as your fingers worked your clit and pumped in and out of you. He wanted to watch you make yourself cum. As he came over to the bed, Peter shed the rest of his clothing and crawled into the bed beside you. He began to kiss your neck as he worked on kissing down your body, he grabbed your wrists and pinned them above your head. You gasped out some as he moved in between your legs and slowly kissed down your body.
When he reached your breasts, he stopped to suck hickeys on them along with licking and sucking on your nipples. You moaned out softly as you moved your hips up some and began to grind against Peter. He looked up at you and his his one free hand to pin your hips to the bed. You groaned out as Peter began to kiss down your body. Once he got to your core, he gently kiss and licked as you bucked your hips up.
“No teasing me, Pete. Just fuck me already, please.” Peter thought about it for a moment before moving up from your core to your face.
“So desperate for my cock already, sweetheart? Is that all you want?” He whispered in your ear as he teased your entrance with the head of him member. You quickly nodded as you turned your head to kiss his cheek.
“Please, Peter. I need you in me.” You tried to roll your hips towards you but he pulled back some. You groaned out in frustration before feeling Peter enter you. You threw your head back and moaned out loudly. For as long as the two of you had been together you still had to adjust to his size a bit. You small groan escaped Peter’s lips as he pushed all of him inside you and settled for a moment.
Slowly he pulled his hips away before slamming them into you. You wanted to grip the sheets or run your nails down Peter’s back but your hands were still pinned above your head. You tried moving them but Peter’s grip was tight. You whined some and looked at Peter’s green eyes. He placed a quick kiss to your lips before letting your hands go. Instantly, you wrapped your hands around him and slowly dragged your fingers down his back. Feeling your nails on his skin only caused his hips to move harder and faster into you.
You moaned out loudly with every thrust as Peter buried his face in your neck. His hot breath mixed with the small groans that escaped his lips had you scratching down his back more. One of Peter’s hands moved to you hips and moved your legs to wrap around his waist. He lifted your hips up slightly so he could get a better angle as he thrusted hard into you. You could feel your orgasm building as your nails dig deeper into Peter’s back as you began to draw blood. Peter groaned deeply into your neck as he pulled himself out and away from you.
“Get on your hands and knees.” Peter commanded. You nodded and quickly moved to to position yourself on your hands and knees. Peter smirked and pushed your back down so your face was in the pillow. He slid into you and began to pound hard into you. The grip on your pillow was tight as you moaned and screamed out into the pillow. Peter was gripping your hips as he thrusted hard into you and you couldn’t handle it anymore.
You moaned out as you spasmed around him and released your orgasm. Peter smirked as he felt you clench around him as he continued to thrust harder into you. After a few more thrusts, he pushed deep into you as he released his seed. A groan escaped his lips as he stayed like that for a moment. As he slowly pulled out of you, he stayed there to watch his cum drip out of you. A chuckle escaped his lips as he got off the bed and went to the bathroom to wet a rag to clean you off. You squirmed away from the sensitivity but Peter was quick to clean you up.
“Ya know something, Peter? We should make videos sometime. Just for our viewing pleasure.” You said once you got comfy in the bed. Peter chuckled as he cleaned the clothing up and threw them all in the hamper.
“So you can get off to them?” Peter asked with a chuckle. You nodded some as you cuddled up against him in bed and nodded softly.
“Mmm, just maybe babe. Now come on, I’m tired Peter.” You yawned softly as you closed your eyes and laid your head on Peter’s chest as you drifted off to sleep.
“I know. I’m late. I literally ran from the subway”, Sonny said quickly as he rushed into the master bath.
“Slow down babe. We have a half hour til we have to leave. He shut the door behind him and you heard the shower start. After fastening your sandals, you went to the closet to grab Sonny some clothes.
His shower was quick. He emerged with a towel sling low on his hips, hair falling on his forehead, his skin had beads of water. He was just so hot and so yours. You bite your lip, and your skin became flushed. Then he dropped the towel and holy God you thought you just might lose it right there. All the years you had been together and this man could still make you swoon.
“Remind me again who we’re meetin’”, Sonny asked bringing your attention back to the now.
“What? Oh, um yeah”, you stammered, “a few of the nurses and docs I worked with plus their significant others. You met them at Rachel’s BBQ.” You turned away cheeks flushing.
Sonny raised an eyebrow, “you feelin’ ok doll? You looked flushed” he raised a brow. He walked over and felt your forehead.
“I’m good just a little stuffy in here” you responded.
“Whateva you say”, giving you a smirk. Cause he totally knows why.
Arriving at the restaurant, you were greeted by Laura.
“Hey Y/N. Hey Sonny”, kissing you on the cheek, “We already have a table.” You followed Laura, Sonny escorting you with his hand at the small if your back.
It was so good seeing everyone. After Ethan was born, you stayed home with the kids. You picked up a shift a couple times a month to keep up on things. You loved being home with the kids, but missed the interaction with your friends.
After dinner, everyone sat around talking and sharing harrowing stories of their time working the ER. Remember that time that Y/N, tackled that guy after he punched Dr. Myer?“, Sabrina cackled. The whole table broke out in laughter.
“Or the time that guy came in with an apple stuck up his rectum?”, you added.
Sonny had been quiet most of the evening. He gave the occasional grin, laughed a couple times. “Hey. You ok babe?”, touching his arm.
“I’m fine” he said with a tight smile. You weren’t convinced.
You bid your goodbyes and walked to the car. You slide your arm through his and looked up at his profile. “I know something is bothering you, Dominick”, you said firmly. He snapped his eyes to you, knowing you only used his given name when you were angry or wanted to make a point.
When you stopped, Sonny gave you a questioning look. “Tell me. Now.” Sonny hung his head and what looked like a blush crept over his cheeks.
“Nah. It’s embarrassing. It’s childish.”
“If it’s bothering you, then it’s bothering me. Please tell me”, you took his hands and looked up at him. Taking a deep breath,
“I felt left out tonight. Like I was being ignored. Everyone there, except for me works at the hospital. You have your inside jokes…”
“I am so sorry, Sonny. I just got lost in a night out, reliving old times. I didn’t mean to ignore you. You’re always number one. I’m sorry if I made you feel any different.” He took your face in his hands, giving you a kiss that made your toes curl.
“Now let’s go home. I’ll show you why I’m number one”, Sonny growled in your ear.
scrawled on a napkin & tucked in your pocket secretly. you discovered it only when you went to dig your hands in your pocket as you exited the bar and you looked up and shared a private smile with sonny.
I forgot who it was but there a post floating around here where someone said svu only hired men based on how well their noses would brush against you as they’re eating you out.
SVU addict 