Is love enough?

//here’s the drama y’all been wanting.//

“Oh, Peter,” you sighed. Your husband was passed out on the leather couch in his home office again. He still had an empty tumbler in his hand. Taking it from his hand you set it on the end table. Glancing at the half-empty bottle that had been full two days ago made your stomach churn. Counseling wasn’t working, and he could never seem to make an AA meeting.

Peter’s breathing was easy, mouth slightly open, face relaxed. He was sleeping the sound sleep of a drunk. For a moment you just stood there admiring his beautiful face. Maybe you and the kids weren’t enough for him to fight his demons. Absentmindedly you rubbed your belly. Tears filled your eyes. What were you going to do?

“Good morning, darling,” Peter said in a chipper tone. “Breakfast smells great.” He leaned over to kiss your cheek.

All you could muster was a tight smile. He acted like nothing was wrong like he hadn’t passed out almost every night. Most nights he made it back to bed or you would find him on the couch, the office.

Peter cleared the table and cleaned up the kitchen after breakfast. “What time do your parents want us there this evening?”

“6:30pm.”

“You okay? You’ve been quiet.” Peter’s brows knitted together as he looked down at you leaning against the counter.

“Been a long week. Wish we didn’t have dinner at my parents’,” you confessed. And not for the reason Peter thought. Peter and your Dad merely tolerated one another and that was being generous. There was always so much tension in the room and it just filled you with anxiety.

“You and me both,” he concurred.

“I need a favor.”

“Anything for you, darling,” Peter replied with a wink.

It took everything for you not to roll your eyes. “Please. Don’t drink this evening.”

At 6:30PM sharp, you knocked on your parents front door. When your Mom opened the door a big smile crossed her face. Once inside, Peter helped you with your coat and hung it along with his on the coat rack. “You are absolutely glowing,” she gushed and pulled you into a hug. “And there’s my beautiful babies.” She hugged Julian and Audra.

“Thanks, Mom. You look great.”

“Peter, come here and give you favorite mother-in-law a hug.” She gave Peter a kiss on the cheek. “Let me get your picture.”

You rolled your eyes but obliged her. You gave her two minutes before she had the picture on Facebook, Instagram.

“There’s my baby girl,” your Dad said as he entered the room. Instantly Peter tensed beside you. You gave his hand a squeeze. “And my sweet grandbabies.”

“Hi Daddy.” you greeted him with a smile before you hugged him.

His demeanor changed dramatically when he greeted your husband. “Peter. Happy Thanksgiving.”

“Harold. Happy Thanksgiving.”

The two men shook hands. “Thank you,” your Dad replied. “Still liking SVU?”

“It has its moments. Different beast for certain.”

“I can only imagine.”

Watching the interaction, you breathed a sigh of relief. Maybe tonight wouldn’t be as bad as you had originally thought.

When dinner was over you, your mom, sister-in-law, Sabrina and kids went to the living to talk and let the kids play. The last you’d seen Peter was about a half an hour ago. He had been nursing a brandy and smoking a cigar with your Dad on the balcony.

Yelling from the other room got everyone’s attention. Moving as fast as you were able to you find your Dad and Peter standing way too close. Both had their fists balled up, faces red, and yelling.

“She’s way too good for you. And you know that!” your father said to Peter and pushed a finger into his chest.

“Don’t touch me again, Harold,” Peter growled through clenched teeth.

“Peter. Dad. Stop this please,” you cried out. It was like you weren’t even there.

“You’ve brought her nothing but grief since you’ve been together. Following you around when you played baseball, supporting you when you finished law school, stood beside your decision to move back to New York. She gave up her career so you could further yours. Then the rape allegation…I doubt you’re even innocent.”

Peter pulled his fist back making contact with your Dad’s jaw. Your Dad stumbled back, regained his footing then lunged at Peter.

9Julian, Audra and your nieces started crying you hadn’t noticed they came into the dining room. Your brother-in-law jumped in trying to pull them apart only to be punched and pushed onto the table. Dishes and food flew everywhere.

“Stop. Please. Stop!” you yelled. “Peter! Please!”

“Harold!” your mom yelled.

“Stay out of this, Y/N. I’ve put up with this son of a bitch for 10 years,” Peter bellowed.

“You’ve put up with me? It’s the other way around. You’re a sorry excuse for a husband and father! I wish-”

Turning on your heel you put the kid’s shoes and coats on and left without a word. “Why is Pappy and Daddy fighting? It scared me.” Julian said crying.

“I’m sorry buddy. They shouldn’t act like that.”

Audra clung to you, sniffing. “I want Daddy.”

When you and the kids were halfway home your phone started ringing and buzzing with calls and texts from Peter, your mom, brother. And you ignored all of them. Finally, you texted your Mom letting her know you and the kids were home safely.

The kids were tucked in when Peter walked through the door. “What the hell Y/N. You just leave me there?”

“First of all lower your voice. The kids were scared, I was scared. I begged both of you to stop fighting. It was like you didn’t even hear me.” You crossed your arms over the chest. “I asked you not to drink just one night and you couldn’t do it.”

“So, this all my fault. Your Dad started all of this.” He pointed toward you. “You’ve never had my back when it comes to him.”

“Are you kidding me? I didn’t talk to or go around my Dad for years because the two of you hate one another so much,” you shot back. “And don’t worry, my Dad will be hearing from me too.”

Peter stared you down, he knew it was the truth.

Continuing your speech you spoke softer. “You get passed out drunk every night. One night Peter, that’s all I asked and you couldn’t do it. You have demons that I can’t excise. I refuse to live like this, not knowing when you’re coming home if you’ll come home drunk or-”

“Well when you have a life like mine, it’s hard not to drink.”

It was like a punch to the stomach. You swallowed back the lump in your throat. “Well, maybe you should find somewhere else to stay.”

“Wait. No. That’s not what I meant.”

“I know exactly what you mean Peter.” You pinched the bridge of your nose. “I’m going to bed. I can’t deal with any more today.”

“Y/N-”

“There are blankets and pillows in the hall linen closet for the guest bedroom. It’ll be a welcome change from passing out on your office couch.” Without a glance back, you went to your bedroom and shut the door. After finishing your bedtime routine you were answering texts from your Mom, brother, and sister-in-law. Your Dad didn’t text you, good decision on his part. When your phone dinged again it was a text from Peter.

[From: Peter 9:42PM] I love you.

[To: Peter 9:43PM] I love you too. But sometimes that’s not enough.

Okay silly, fluffy smut with Sonny. You two are in bed one night, just kind of fooling around, making out, but it’s definitely leading somewhere so as you start to kiss down Sonny’s chest something just overcomes you, you can’t help but blow a raspberry into his stomach. He lets out a shocked laugh and then the rest of the night, even as the two of you make love its all giggly and sweet.

barbabangme:

HAHA AWWWW YES I LOVE THIS HES THE BEST AT HAVING GIGGLY SWEET SEX AND OF COURSE HE DOES IT BACK TO YOU AND TICKLES YOU

This is pure and sweet.

carisi-dreams:

anon requested: “Hold my hand.” from the prompt list for the polyverse please! +“Tell him you need him.” Stevie Nicks prompt and poly!verse. Poly!verse is life!

nsfw y’all | polyam!verse masterlist


Sweat pooled on Nick’s forehead and dripped onto Sonny’s stomach in between vigorous thrusts. Nick’s hands were gripping Sonny’s hips so tightly that you knew there would be bruises the next morning. To his credt, Sonny didn’t even seem to notice. He writhed on the bed, groaning loudly and spurring on Nick.

“Feel so good, Nicky,” he breathed when you pulled back from your kiss.

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Healing hearts-a Heartfelt Passages fic

“So which one do you like best?” you asked Isaac. Cora was holding your hand, twirling around and around.

Isaac’s little brow furrowed as he tried to decide. “I don’t know Mama.” He shrugged his shoulders. You examined the store for a sales associate but the store was chaotic. They were all with other customers at the moment.

“Go with the Mizuno,” a voice from behind you recommended.

Turning you saw Peter standing behind you. “Peter. It’s you. Thank you.” Cora waved at Peter from where she was now clinging to your leg. He grinned and waved back. Taking the glove from the shelf, you tucked it under your arm.

“No problem. Did you get cleats and a bat yet?” Peter inquired.

You raised a brow and your nose crinkled. “He needs all that?”

“C’mon. I can help pick the right weight bat.” Peter offered. “I did play professional baseball after all.”

“I’m sure you’re busy. I can ask William or-”

“Mama?” Isaac tugged on your hand to get your attention. “I want him to help.”

After leaving the sporting goods store, you asked Peter to join you and the kids for lunch as a thank you. Peter gestured to a bench at the park while the kids played. “So New York or Chicago hot dogs?” you asked Peter before biting into your spicy mustard, onion-laden hot dog.

Peter chuckled. “Good question. As a hot dog connoisseur, I have to say Chicago. Better casings, higher quality meats.”

“Me too. I haven’t had a Chicago hot dog since Mike and I moved to NYC.”

“You have some mustard just-” Peter pointed to the corner of your mouth.

“I get it?” you asked running your tongue over your lips.

Peter swiped his thumb over the corner of your mouth. “Got it.”

Gently you bit your bottom lip, looking up at Peter through your lashes. “Thanks.” Suddenly you needed something to do. Luckily the kids ran up to you asking to be pushed on the swings. The kids grabbed your hand pulling you toward the swings. “It’s easier with two people ya know.”

Peter smiled. “Right behind you.”

A couple months later

“Are we there yet?” Isaac asked from the backseat.

“Almost buddy,” you answered. He loved baseball and was always excited for practice and games. Looking in the rearview Isaac already had his glove on, his hat was on backward. He saw pictures of Mike and insisted on wearing his hat like Daddy. Cora had fallen asleep in her car seat just minutes after leaving the house.

There were several cars already at the field when you arrived. You pulled into a parking spot. Isaac was out of his booster seat and opening the car door before you had barely shut the car off. “Wait right there.”

You took a sleeping Cora from her car seat then made your way around to Isaac’s side of the bed. “Mr. Peter!” Isaac called out excitedly.

Peter found out he would be coaching Isaac’s team about a month ago. Isaac thought it was so cool a real baseball player would be his coach. “Isaac. My man!” He greeted Isaac with a high five.

“I think you may be his hero,” you said to Peter.

Peter leaned down to kiss your cheek. “How was your week? I’ve missed you.”

“Ugh. Crazy. I’ve missed you too. Happy tomorrow is Friday. How about you?”

“Same for me. But knowing I get to spend the weekend with my favorite people makes the days go by a little quicker.”

Cora started waking up. She rubbed her eyes. When she saw Peter she held her arms out to him. “Petey hold me.”

Peter took her into his arms without hesitation. “She’s the only one that can call me that and get away with it.”

Your memory flashed back to the first time you called Mike, Mikey. He had said the same thing to you. It was the first time in a long time that thinking about Mike made you sad. You gave him a tight smile. “I’ll be right back. I left something in the car.” Once you got to the car you sat inside for a few minutes trying to compose yourself. Taking a few cleansing breaths and dabbing your eyes, you exited the vehicle and watched the practice.

It took a few times of the phone ringing and buzzing beside you before you were awake. “How bad is it? Okay. I’ll be there in 10.” You hit end call and groaned.

“Everything okay?” Peter asked in a raspy voice.

“10 car pile up. They need everyone they get,” you replied. “I’ll call Martha to come over.”

Peter sat up a little in bed. “I can watch them.”

“I can’t ask you to babysit, Peter.” Getting out of bed, you went to the closet to get a set of scrubs.

“You didn’t ask, I offered.” He turned over to where you were sitting on the side of the bed.

Looking over your shoulder at Peter you contemplated what to do. “Only if you’re sure. I mean Cora gets up really early. It’s 3:00, so she’ll probably be up at like-”

“5:30, unless she sleeps in then 6:00. Likes apple juice and hits the ground running. Isaac won’t be up til 8am. Not a morning person, like someone else I know.”  Peter gave you a small smile.

You had to smile back. He knew the kids’ routines and habits as well as you did. “Okay. Call if you need anything.”

“We’ll be fine. You’ve been to my place. I’ve kept all my plants alive,” he said with a wry smile.

When you came back home Peter met you at the door. The look on his face told you something was wrong. “What is it? What’s wrong? Is it the kids?”

He grasped your shoulders. “They’re fine. It’s Denny. I had to carry him inside. He can’t get up.”

You stroked Denny’s head as he lay in your lap. Isaac sat beside you petting Denny as well. Cora had fallen asleep on the way to the vet, Peter was currently holding her.

“Mrs. Dodds. You’re doing the right thing,” the vet said as he sat on the floor beside you.

You nodded quickly, wiping your nose on the back of your hand. “I know. Just hard to let him go.” You hugged Denny around the neck and kissed his fur.

“I’ll give you a few minutes,” he said softly as he stood to leave.

“Oh, Denny. You have always been such a good boy.” Peter knelt down beside you. “He, uh, we wondered how he would do with the kids. He loved them, watched over them. And then when Mike died-died he never left my side,” you sobbed. Peter placed a hand on your shoulder and squeezed gently. “I’m sorry.”

“Don’t apologize.” Peter kissed your head.

Peter insisted you eat, shower then lie down when you got home and you didn’t argue. You padded out to the kitchen a couple hours later for a bottle of water. Peter and the kids were sitting at the table. “What are you guys up to?”

“I’m showing Peter pictures of when I was in your belly,” Isaac explained.

“You were a beautiful bride,” Peter complimented you.

“Not bad for seven months pregnant.” It has been one of the happiest days of your life.

Peter’s phone buzzed beside him on the table. Brinkhaven Psychiatric Hospital showed up on the screen. “Sorry I have to take this.” He answered the phone but didn’t leave the room. “Okay. No. I understand. I’ll be there first thing in the morning. Thank you.” He ended the call.

“Is your sister okay?” you asked with concern.

“She’s having side effects from her medications. Tardive dys-dys…”

“Tardive dyskinesia. Her medications are affecting her nervous system. Has she been on her current medication regimen for a long time?”

“Honestly I have no idea. My Dad took care of things. It’s just been since his passing that I’ve become involved in her care. It’s not easy to navigate,” he confessed.

“I can come with you if you want.”

Peter’s eyes darted to yours. “You’d do that for me?”

“Of course. I’ll see if Anne and William can watch the kids.” Picking up your phone you tapped out a quick text to Anne. She responded almost immediately. She and William were in the neighborhood and asked if the kids could just stay the night. “Who wants to stay at Memaw and Pappy’s?”

“Me!”

“Me!”

You laughed. “That’s what I thought. Let’s go get some clothes.”

After the kids were picked up, it left you and Peter alone. A rare occurrence. “I forgot how quiet it is when they aren’t here,” Peter commented.

“I know it’s weird.”

“I can think of a way to make it less quiet,” Peter said suggestively. He leaned over, grasping your thighs picking you up, carrying you to the bedroom.

The next several weeks went by without incident. Pam was improving. She remembered Peter and was getting to know you and the kids. Everything was going so well you were just waiting for the other shoe to drop. And when it did drop it cracked the very foundation you were standing on.

“Nick. Hey. Wasn’t-”

“Where are you?”

“I’m at home. Why what’s up?”

“Are the kids with you?”

“They’re here. Nick. What’s going on? You’re starting to scare me.”

“Peter’s been threatened which means you and the kids are at risk,” he explained. “Lock the doors. Get some clothes together. I’m on my way there.”

“Yeah. Yeah. Okay.” As soon as you hung up with Nick you dialed Peter. No answer. You left him a message, then a text. When Nick arrived 15 minutes later you had bags packed for you and the kids.

“Nick I haven’t heard from Peter. I tried to call.”

“He’s safe at the precinct. I’m taking you there right now. TARU has his phone.” Nick’s voice was clipped.

“Is something bothering you, Nick?”

“Nope.” He jaw was clenching and he had a death grip on the steering wheel.

Shaking your head you didn’t say anything the rest of the way to the precinct.

Peter was pacing when you and the kids entered the precinct. He crossed the room in a few short strides. He picked up Isaac then wrapped you and Cora in a tight embrace. “I’m so sorry this is happening.”

“It’s not your fault-”

“Peter. We found ‘em,” Sonny interrupted. “We’re movin’ out now.”

“I need to go.” He kissed you then placed Isaac back on his feet. “I love you.”

You were too shocked to say it back. Those three words scared you, although you knew you felt the same way. “I love you too,” you said into the empty room.