The sun is barely over the horizon when Sonny crawls out of bed. The night before still lingers in the empty flutes stained sticky with dried champagne on the nightstand, dances in the folds of clothes discarded on the grey carpet, glints in the reflection of poor lighting on the diamond ring on your finger. It fills the air with the scent of sweat and strawberries. Heavy curtains block light from coming in, so he can only see the barest hints in the dark room, but he doesnât dare to let more in lest it wake you up.
Sleeping, you look even more angelic than you do awake. No pressures draw lines on your face that donât belong with the curves and angles of your cheeks, lips, nose, brows, jaw, all the parts of you that he usually wakes up staring at with a dimpled beaming grin on his cheeks. He resists the urge to touch you, terrified of disturbing the rest that youâve earned. Sheets twisted around you expose the barest hints of your thighs and back, dipping down so that he can just see the contours of your body. If work didnât loom at the turn of the hour, heâd spend the morning exploring what heâs come to know so well.
He dresses in the dark and does his hair by the dull light from his phone screen because he canât bring himself to leave the bedroom when youâre still so close. His tie goes on messy, badge clipped crookedly on his belt beside the gun he fumbles at the safe of for too long a time. Staying home seems so nice, but duty calls. Tucking his phone into his suit jacket, he canât resist leaning down to kiss your temple lightly enough that you make no move other than a slight shift and a sleeping smile. Youâre beautiful, and with the ring on your hand, youâre his. His heart is unbearably full as he finally forces himself to leave.
Christmas time has always been your favorite time of year. You enjoy peppermint hot chocolate, Christmas decorations, songs, and the Christmas spirit. The cold, on the other hand, has never been something you could bring yourself to enjoy. You hate bundling up in so many layers but living in New York makes that pretty impossible not to do. So during the winter months, you spend your days anticipating the moment your husband comes home and cuddles you, sharing his immense amount of body heat.
You were happily surprised to come home from work and picking your son, Mikey, up from preschool to see Sonny had gotten off work early. You and Mikey walk through the door and are greeted by the delightful smell of spaghetti and Christmas music filling the house. Toeing off your shoes and hanging your coat in the closet, you follow the boy into the kitchen.
âHey, handsome, youâre home early.â smiling, you walk up to him and try to dodge Mikeyâs attempts to prevent the two of you from kissing.
âNo, donât kiss my Mommy!â Mikey squeals with a pout on his face.
âWhy canât Daddy kiss me?â you ask poking at the little boyâs belly.
âLily said boys give girls cooties with kisses. Momma canât get cooties!â He scolds his father who just chuckles. Â
âI promise I wonât give Mommy cooties.â Sonny smiles as he places Mikey back down on the ground. âGo put your coat and backpack away, dinner is ready.â
âOkay, Daddy!â he says and takes off running out of the room.
âOkay, now how about that kiss?â You smile and stand up on your tiptoes to reach his soft and loving lips. His arms wrap around you as he pulls you close to his body.
âNo! Mommy has the cootie bug now!â You hear your son shout from behind you, followed by the patter of his bare feet as he runs around the house screaming, âWeâre all going to die!â
âLook at what you did, doll. You couldnât resist these lips and now we are in a state of emergency.â He chuckles and unwraps his arms from around your body to chase after Mikey.
âPoor kid takes after me.â You sigh out and shake your head but your comment went unheard over Mikeyâs wails. âMikey, itâs okay baby, Mommy likes Daddyâs cooties. I am okay.â You try to assure him as you take his small body from Sonnyâs arms. âI kiss Daddy all the time, we are not going to die.â
âYou sure?â He asks in a small, unsure voice.
âPositive!â
âEventful night,â Sonny says, your nearly naked bodies pressed against each other to share the extra skin-to-skin body heat.
âPoor guy thought you were giving me cooties.â You smile. Although he is a lot like you in the dramatic and quick panic mode, he is also a lot like Sonny. When it comes to you, that boy is extremely protective and is dead set on becoming a detective like his Daddy, so that he can âprotect Mommy for the rest of his life.â
âWhen he gets older he will realize he was the best cootie I ever gave you.â He chuckles as he kisses the crook of your neck. âYou want another one, doll?â
âA coo- a kid? How do you think Mikey would react?â You ask, turning to face Sonny.
âLet me go ask.â He slips out of the bed in only his boxers and heads toward the door.
âWait, itâs too cold, come back!â You whine sitting up in the bed. âPlus, Mikey just fell asleep. We can talk to him tomorrow, itâs Mommy and Daddy time now.â You wink as you slide off your panties and sling them at him.
âDonât have to ask me twice.â
reblog to make it seem like Iâm actually doing things on here lol
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