You two had only been married three months. You were driving down the road towards his parents house when it happened. You kept changing the radio stations since nothing you liked was on. Sonny chuckled as he gently hit your hand so you’d settle on a station.
“You need to stop changing stations so often. Just put one and stay on it.” Sonny laughed as he continued to drive down the road. You two were stopped at a red light as you turned to Sonny.
“Y’know, sunshine, I’m so glad that I met you. I just love you so much and I don’t know what I’d do without you.” You said as you grabbed his hand and gave it a squeeze. Sonny chuckled and turned to look at you.
“You glad you’re Mrs Carisi?” Sonny asked as he placed a kiss on your cheek. You nodded as you smiled brightly up at him.
“I dreamed of our wedding day the day we met.” You whispered. Sonny smiled and turned to look at the traffic light. After a moment it turned to green and Sonny had pressed on the gas to get the car to move. Sonny glanced at you with a quick smile before his eyes focused on the road. Before either of you knew, you heard the sound of a car horn before felt the impact of the other vehicle hitting yours.
The sound of sirens were heard all around as Sonny slowly opened his eyes. He was still sitting in the car with his forehead leaning against the steering wheel. It took Sonny a moment to realize what happened and turned to quickly look at you. You were barely awake as you were pressing onto a large wound you had gotten from being punctured in the abdomen. Sonny noticed the blood everywhere and quickly unbuckled himself.
“Hold on, doll. I got you.” Sonny had said as he got out of the car. He rushed to your side of the car and quickly yanked the door open. It took him a moment to get the door open but once he did, he unbuckled you and carefully removed you from the car.
“Sonny, I-”
“Shh, it’s alright, doll. You’re going to be alright.” Sonny repeated as he held you close against his body. You just groaned out as you looked up at him.
Sonny gently laid you on the ground and pulled his jacket off to place it under your head. He placed his hands on your wound and apply enough pressure to hopefully to stop the bleeding until the ambulance had arrived. You glanced up at Sonny and noticed that his eyes looked panicked, worried and even pained. How could he allow this happen to you? You were in and out and Sonny kept mumbling to you, to hold on just a bit longer and that you’d be okay. You had moved to place your hands overs his Sonny leaned down and placed his forehead against yours. Again, he whispered to hold on and that you’d be fine. He placed his lips against yours as he once against placed his forehead against yours. When you didn’t open your eyes again, Sonny began to panic.
“Doll? Hey, open your eyes.” Sonny said softly as he pulled away from you. He looked at you and stared at your chest and he noticed you were no longer breathing. He didn’t know what to do as the ambulance finally arrived. They rushed over to Sonny and tried to pull him away from your body to look you over. He refused.
“Sir, please.” Finally a police officer came over to pull Sonny away from you. He protested as he moved to be beside you.
“No! I’m not leaving my wife’s side!” Sonny protested as he tried to not to cry. He couldn’t lose you, he wasn’t going to allow it to happen. After a few minutes, the EMT’s turned to look at Sonny as one sighed.
“I’m sorry, sir. She’s gone…”
Hearing those words absolutely broke Sonny’s heart. You couldn’t be gone. Sonny kept repeating over and over again that this couldn’t be happening, grabbing your hand and telling you to wake up. You name kept coming out of his mouth as tears streamed down his face. Sonny was given a few minutes before he was escorted to an ambulance to be looked at. He had something wrapped around his shoulders as he closed his eyes and tried to process everything that had happened.
“Carisi? Carisi.” Sonny heard a voice calling his name after a few minutes as he slowly opened his eyes. He turned to his right and saw Amanda sitting next to him in the back of the ambulance.
“H-huh?” Sonny asked. His voice was no louder than a whisper as the blonde looked over her partner who was covered in blood.
“Lieu is on her way. Are you alright? The cops and EMTs had said you kept whispering someone’s name? (Y/N)?” Amanda had asked her partner. He just sat there and opened and closed his mouth a few times before looking down at his hands. He nodded as a few tears had threatened his eyes.
“Y-Yeah. I’m good…” Sonny said. He looked up slowly and stared at the vehicle in front of him. He had just gotten into a car accident with Jules. The memory of the accident you and Sonny had gotten into eight years before was playing over in his head. He tried to save Jules like how he tried to save you but he was unsuccessful both times. Once Olivia had joined Amanda and Sonny, they both explained the situation.
“Lieu,” Sonny called out as Olivia began to walk away, “if it’s alright with you, I-I’d like to take a few days off…” Sonny called out to the brunette. Olivia nodded and told Sonny to take off as much time as he needed. After being checked one last time, Sonny’s mother was called to come pick him up.
The next morning, Sonny had gone back to his apartment to quickly change before heading to one of the flower shops by where he lives. He grabbed a beautiful bouquet of mixed flowers before paying and heading down the sidewalk. He walked a few blocked before he found a small cemetery. He walked a bit farther before he found a small tombstone and placed the bouquet on it. Sonny sighed softly as he shoved his hands into his pockets.
“Hey, doll. I, uh, I miss ya…” Sonny had whispered softly. He just stared at the stone with your name on it as he felt tears welling up in his eyes. He couldn’t find the words he wanted to say. He just stood there and paced around for a moment before stopped.
“I was in an accident yesterday. She died on me, j-just like you… I guess I had a moment where I thought Jules was you. Amanda asked me about you and I just couldn’t tell her. God, I miss you so, so much.” Sonny said as he wipe tears away from his eyes. Today was one of the days he missed you the most. He just stared at the stone for a moment before letting out a very shaky sigh.
“I love you, so much.” Sonny whispered before slowly turning and walking away. He didn’t want to leave but he needed to spend time with his family. His parents held a very nice family dinner where everyone was there, his sister, his nieces and nephews and even Bella’s fiancé. It was nice to be around the family after what had just happened to Sonny.
When Monday rolled around, Sonny was back at work. He was sitting at his desk just staring at his computer when Amanda walked over to him. She sat in the chair next to his desk and just stared at him. She wanted to ask about what was going through his mind from the accident and wanted to know who the name he kept repeating was. A sigh escaped the blondes lips as she turned her full attention to her partner and stared at him.
“Who is (Y/N), Carisi?” He knew this was coming. That she was going to ask about you. Sonny stared at Amanda before shifting in his seat some.
“She was my wife… we got into a car accident eight years ago heading to my parents for dinner. She passed away, just like Jules…” Sonny had said. Amanda was surprised that Sonny was married, considering his ex-girlfriend he recently had and the time he almost kissed her.
“Damn, I-I’m Sorry about that, Dominick. Really. I’m here for you if you ever wanna talk.” Amanda said as she grabbed her partners hand. Sonny nodded as he looked up at her.
“Thanks, Amanda. I appreciate it.” Sonny smiled some as he turned back to his computer. Amanda stood up and gently pat Sonny’s shoulder before heading over to her desk. Sonny sighed as he pulled his phone out of his pocket and slowly went to his photos and began to scroll through the pictures he had of the two a you. A smile moved over his lips as he found the few wedding selfies you two had taken.
God, he missed you so much.
It’s cool I didn’t need to be happy today
This shattered my heart and crushed my soul. @childofbarisi you warned us but damn.
SVU addict 